Were we so shocked and traumatised that we did not believe that you meant what you said when you told us this temple will be raised just 3 days after it has been destroyed?
Were we so blind that we did not see you by our side until you broke the bread and gave it to us?
Were our minds so dull that all the prophecies meant nothing until you patiently unpacked them?
Were our hearts so cold that we did not know you walked with us until so much later?
Am I so tossed by life that your promises and life itself seem empty? Am I so blind that I do not see you in every sky, tree or insect I pass? Am I so deaf that I do not hear your voice in the wind and the word? Is my heart so cold that I do not feel you by my side?
The joyous wedding
Longed for as a child, it became yours.
Life looking good
Except the womb lay empty
And until your husband snatched away.
Seven years of almost perfect
Enough memories to tear at your heart
As now you slept alone.
And who would want a barren woman as a wife?
So what to do? And how to live?
A step madein the direction of the temple.
A life dedicated to quiet service
To cleaning and candle lighting
To prayer and worship
A friend of God
And not abandoning hope.
Seventy seven long years
Living in God’s presence
Sleeping in His temple
Speaking his words.
Childless you remainedUntil a suddenly when
The Child was here and
Placed in your arms.
As you had entrusted your life, your self to Him
So He came to You and placed himself in Your arms.
A glorious eternal moment
When God lay in your arms and looked you in the eyes.
The arms that had been empty
Love was yours. Forever.
Walking through the dark valley of the shadow does not sound so bad if You are with me But O I underestimated the thick, impenetrable blackness and swirling confusion of that valley. The gut-wrenching shock - how did I get here? No road back. I stumble though this strange land Every tragedy that ever assailed me seems to return And here I am stuck, red eyes awake Heart shaking Dreading the unknown path ahead...scared, if I am honest.
Fear not, child. I am with you. I will never NEVER leave you alone. I am not the author of confusion I am close beside in that valley I myself traversed.
I WILL restore your soul It may take time but let us journey. The wind of my spirit will lift the chaotic clouds of confusion And you will find that there are Green pastures, and still waters. Places of peace for you to find. I will renew your strength
A shepherd has eyes only for the sheep And I am a good shepherd I will not allow you to stay lost and confused My comfort and anointing are here for you. I will prepare such a feast for you The enemy who watches will flee in confusion As I reveal my favour, sacrifice and goodness.
I would like you to trust. But whether you do or whether you don’t Or perhaps just some of the time My love is unfailing. Ever-present I am with you.